Monday, July 23, 2012

Horrible News

I just got a call from Dr. Kennedy at MedVet.  Lexie's biopsies came back from her double-mastectomy.  She has Stage III mammary carcinoma.  All of the details are a blur to me right now, but Dr. Kennedy said something about her type of cancer affecting the vascular and lymphatic systems.  He also said there is a 50/50 chance that another tumor will either come back in her mammary glands or appear elsewhere within 12-15 months. 

He said that I could speak to someone in their Oncology department about possibly starting chemotherapy, but I know there is no possible way I could afford to give her chemotherapy treatments after already spending thousands of dollars on her eye treatments and surgeries.  Not only that, but there is a consultation charge just to speak with Oncology about chemo options for Lou. 

I'm too shaken up to really talk any more about this.  All I can tell you is that right now I'm heartbroken and angry.  I'm angry that they weren't able to see a Stage III carcinoma on her X-rays, abdominal ultrasound, or any blood work.  If they had, I probably wouldn't have put her through all of these surgeries and racked up another $2000 in debt on my brother's Care Credit account.  I don't mean that to sound cold or sound like all I'm thinking about is money, because it absolutely isn't.  It's just one of the things I'm so angry about right now.  Mainly, I'm feeling horrible for putting Lexie through all of this.  Recovery has not been easy on her, or any of us, and now it doesn't even feel like "recovery."  It feels more like I'm putting us all through torture.  I thought that this tough recovery period would be 100% worth it once she was all better and was able to adjust to her new life as a blind Dobe, but now....

8 comments:

  1. This just breaks my heart! I am praying for you all!!

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  2. This is horrible. I know things are kind of up in the air for you right now but if you are still willing to fight for Lou then you could start a page on kickstarter.com. You can set up a page for donations to pay for Lou's consultation and possible chemo. You could also provide people with free photo editing for their donations if you want. I know you said earlier that you don't want to take donations again but there are a lot of good people out there that would step up to help Lou and she deserves as much of a chance as any other pup. I know there are some serious set backs that you are facing and I am certainly not in your situation but I know if I was I wouldnt give up until I exhausted every resource. Whatever you do, I'm sure I speak for all of us in that we are behind you.

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  3. This just made my heart sink :(

    I'd be pretty pissed too, that they didn't catch something like that with all the work that they've been doing. It's so scary and disappointing.

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear this. Be reminded that whatever happens next...she knows how much you love her.

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  5. Hi COurtney, I am so so sorry to hear about your darling girl. I know it must be really difficult for you to get your head around this, it just one thing piling on top another. How much will the chemo consultation cost for starters? i would be more then willing to contribute towards this. Please let me know>
    Warm wishes, Sharon

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  6. Please accept my condolences in the loss of your Lexie.
    I have lost 2 dogs and 3 cats,(my cat 2 day's ago) all since 2010 and I want them to find me in heaven as well. I want them all to play with each other until I come home to God, my family and my precious little animal family.

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